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Catch me, I’m falling

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Butterflies, weak knees, uncontrollable smiling when her name came up on my phone…Danger! Danger! The Captain is in love…

I’m often asked what started my health and fitness journey…Truth be told, I fell for someone who didn’t catch me. Ouch. Whether I was physically too heavy or emotionally too heavy, it just didn’t work out and the fairytale ended before it began. Before I go on, let me make this clear…this is not a post about a break-up. There was no break-up. We were never officially anything more than just friends. Two people in two different places in our lives that just happened to spend a lot of time together. When that ended, I needed to find something to occupy my time and my thoughts. Dieting and working out seemed to be a pretty good distraction from my feelings (which I have a lot of…y’all already know this).  I started hiking at Runyon Canyon. Something peaceful about the view up there. Since I wasn’t going out that much anymore, I didn’t need to be at the usual after-the-club eating spots (Denny’s, King Taco, etc.). 

After a few months, people started to notice a little bit of a weight loss. I ran with that momentum and by the end of 2014, I lost almost 50lbs. 

Some time in the last two years, I fell in love with myself. What started as a way to keep me from getting lost in my emotions turned into a journey towards self discovery. I became all the things I wanted in a person: passionate, driven and focused. My sense of self worth a lot higher than it was back then. All of a sudden, eating healthy and working out mean something more. Every chicken wing I say no to, every nacho I pass up, every swing, every squat, every second in plank is a tribute to what I’ve become. The level of commitment to get this far is the same level of commitment I can apply in relationships with my family, my friends, and one day someone special. Cheers to 2016! New year, better me. Ready for all of life’s (and love’s) possibilities.

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Love the Journey

  
 Two years ago my then 5 year old Goddaughter said to me, “If you give a piece of your heart to everyone, you won’t have anything left for yourself…” A few months ago, as if she was following up on the lesson she taught me, said to me “…it’s ok though because there will be people who will give you a piece of theirs so you won’t ever feel empty.” Genius. 

Over the last few months, I’ve come across some of the most amazing people. People who have invited me into their lives and have become a big part of mine. They keep me encouraged, they keep me motivated, they make me feel loved and most importantly they’ve taught me that I can be myself. 

JennDogg aka El Diablo aka Oberon. This punk has been part of my life for more than 20 years but has made her presence felt more than ever over the last couple of years…Don’t let that smile fool you, her bite is just as hard as her bark. Stuck with her forever…possibly longer. FML. 

Vanessa. She feels bad for making us run (but she still does it). She thinks I’m a masterpiece πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ™ŒπŸΌ  She’s my favorite. 

 
Alfred and Sonia. He and I had a class together years ago. One time all we did was practice our signatures! Mine has stuck ever since. Because of him, I met her. Swolemates. Body and relationship goals.

 
Ann. I met her last year at a going away party. While holding a plate of nachos, I heard her say, “I have a weigh-in tomorrow, but I don’t give a fcuk!” I thought to myself, “Amazing. One day, I’m going to be good friends with that woman.” Glad that day finally came! 
  

Bri and Matt. Two of my favorite food buddies…I mean workout buddies. Can’t tell you how many nights I’ve just wanted to stay home or eat junk food but the “get your ass up” texts and the “we need to look hot” discussions motivated me to workout.  Bri compliments me all the time but it’s her progress pics that are amazing! Matthew’s drive and determination keep me motivated. Beast mode for sure. 

  There are others: Marzie who abandoned me to work out only at night…jk. Ray who I low key am jealous of cuz his amazing progress. He’s the LTJ superstar. One day, I’ll be up front like him. Nikki who keeps me cracking up all the time. I am legit sad when she’s not there. 

I don’t love working out. It’s early in the morning and every exercise gets harder and harder. It’s the people and the vibe that I love. I realized there’s never really going to be an end goal. There’s always going to be something bigger and better to work for. The destination ended up not being as important to me as the people I’ve come across along the way. Because of them, I know what it truly means to Love The Journey. πŸ˜‰ 

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