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Run the World, Thank the World, Pay it Forward

(Photo Nov. 2016)

Whaaaat? You want me to speak again? Ok, but I can’t promise you that I won’t cry…again.

HOLD UP! Reeeeewind. Here’s a little back story…It was around this time last year when El Diabs (Jenn Reyes) asked me to speak at Run The World last February. I thought “You want me to speak at a fitness event?! Easy-breezey. I’ve lost 100lbs. That’s all I gotta say and boom, mic drop.” 
As the event got closer I thought, “Oh snap, there will be new fit buddies to meet. Gotta look on point.” I spent double the amount of time at the studio/gym.  Since I wasn’t too good at the meal prep game yet, I wasn’t really eating right.  Overworking your body and not properly feeding it…bad combination. Something I’d discover soon enough. 

Also around this time, I started to get distracted (again). Some familiar faces came back around and I thought, “Hmm…maybe this time.” NOPE. Faaack. Here’s the thing, when you start compromising yourself and when you’re not true to yourself, you end up surrounding yourself with people who aren’t going to be true to you either. They eventually leave. And it sucks. So how do you deal with feeling some type of way? Take those emotions out at the gym. Oh yeah! Team No Rest Days!  Woohoo! Nope. I basically supersized the bad combo of overworking my body and not eating right by adding more workouts and mental/emotionally stress. RED FLAG, ANGEL!! Stoppppp!…too late. 

After weeks of doubling up on Ripped, Love The Journey Workshops, and Zumba, my body was done. Clean and press with a kettle bell is my isht. I own that exercise. That day, I couldn’t even lift, bro. Ugh. So tired and it was noticeable. 

Sure enough, interrogation starts. “You’re usually more explosive than that. Everything ok? Have you been getting enough rest? Have you been eating enough?” 

“I’m good. Just a little tired.” Stop lying Angel! She’s gonna know! She probably already doessssss know!! 

I woke up the next morning to a text, “Rest day today.”

After a quick discussion with my fit besties (Bri and Matt) about what the possible consequences would be if I violated orders to rest, I decided ok fine rest it is. After a few hours of much needed sleep, I woke up recharged and refreshed and most importantly, I woke up thankful. Thankful that there were people in my life who were concerned about my well-being.  

(Photo Feb. 2016)

Event day came up and I was ready. Because of the team, I was able to speak from my heart. I wasn’t too worried about what people would think of me or if people would look at me differently after hearing what I had to say. I knew that no matter what happened, they had my back. Stronger together. After the high fives, the hugs, some tears and about 50 new fit buddies, I left that event inspired. Inspired to inspire.

(Photo Feb. 2016)

So what does one do to say thank you? How do you say thank you to people who have sparked joy in your life and people who believed in you when you stopped believing in yourself? You say thank you by paying it forward. You become the spark for someone else. You take the torch and you run with it! A few months after Run the World, your girl got certified to be a Ripped instructor! Ayyyyyyyyy!

(Photo May 2016)

Never in a million years did I think that was possible. Even taking a Ripped class would have been a mission. 3 years ago, I would have said, “Nah.” I was busy at the bars drinking, chasing, and trippin’ (…on feelings. LOL. I just have a lot of them). I know what being alone feels like, but I also know what it feels like when someone makes you feel like you’re part of the team. I sometimes can’t catch a beat to save my life but when I’m teaching a class or taking a class, I’m all in. So be all in. In that hour, be there with your whole heart. Spark joy and pay it forward. You might be the reason someone feels like they’re part of the team too. Stronger together.

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Catch me, I’m falling

Butterflies, weak knees, uncontrollable smiling when her name came up on my phone…Danger! Danger! The Captain is in love…

I’m often asked what started my health and fitness journey…Truth be told, I fell for someone who didn’t catch me. Ouch. Whether I was physically too heavy or emotionally too heavy, it just didn’t work out and the fairytale ended before it began. Before I go on, let me make this clear…this is not a post about a break-up. There was no break-up. We were never officially anything more than just friends. Two people in two different places in our lives that just happened to spend a lot of time together. When that ended, I needed to find something to occupy my time and my thoughts. Dieting and working out seemed to be a pretty good distraction from my feelings (which I have a lot of…y’all already know this).  I started hiking at Runyon Canyon. Something peaceful about the view up there. Since I wasn’t going out that much anymore, I didn’t need to be at the usual after-the-club eating spots (Denny’s, King Taco, etc.). 

After a few months, people started to notice a little bit of a weight loss. I ran with that momentum and by the end of 2014, I lost almost 50lbs. 

Some time in the last two years, I fell in love with myself. What started as a way to keep me from getting lost in my emotions turned into a journey towards self discovery. I became all the things I wanted in a person: passionate, driven and focused. My sense of self worth a lot higher than it was back then. All of a sudden, eating healthy and working out mean something more. Every chicken wing I say no to, every nacho I pass up, every swing, every squat, every second in plank is a tribute to what I’ve become. The level of commitment to get this far is the same level of commitment I can apply in relationships with my family, my friends, and one day someone special. Cheers to 2016! New year, better me. Ready for all of life’s (and love’s) possibilities.

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All of a sudden in the car show scene. Lol. 

I came to Spocom 2013 to support some friends. This year I was given the opportunity to experience it from behind the scenes. Same big smile and same big heart but physically stronger and mentally more focused. When what inspired you at the beginning is no longer there, find something else and keep it moving. Be your own muse and don’t give up. 260lbs to 200lbs wasn’t easy. It’s still not easy. My heart and mind are always in the game but some days my body is just done and nachos sound like a way better idea than working out. Looking at old pictures of myself makes me feel some type of way. I don’t even recognize that person anymore. I’ve come so far that going back isn’t an option. Blessed and thankful to have people around who keep me motivated. Past, present and future…everyone in my life matters.


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Coulda, shoulda, woulda…


I know, I know…it’s been a while since I last posted, my bad.  Anyway…

I could have hit 300lbs.  I should have taken better care of myself.  I would have seen results sooner.  Blah, blah, blah…talk is cheap and actions speak way louder than words. 

March 2012 was the first time I actually saw the number on the scale, 286. I was probably pushing higher than that before then. By Sept 2012, I had clocked in a whopping 4lb loss.  By the end of 2012, I was at 275. Clearly I wasn’t taking my health seriously yet.  

At the beginning of 2013, I made the same “new year, new me” promise I do every year and was able to clock in about a 20+ loss by June. Something happened over the summer though. I let myself fall and get distracted. My health and fitness took a back seat to other things.  I prioritized going out every night.  With each night of partying came a lot of drinking and a lot of late night unhealthy eating (seasoned fries at Denny’s, I miss you).  I still had to wake up every morning for work which means I got hardly any sleep. I let myself get stressed out about things I couldn’t control.  All bad behavior.  If I continued the way I was going, I could have easily reached 300.  Luckily I was still able to clock another 10lb loss by the end of that year.  I gotta admit I do miss going out a lot and I sometimes miss the people I used to go out with (especially…um, never mind…lol).  

I think it was sometime at the very beginning of 2014 I was driving to Brea Mall and thought to myself, “New year, new me again? Maybe for reals this time.” I committed to eating healthier and a year later…boom! Close to a 50lb loss!  Who knew eating out less would be the key!?!  LOL…pervs.  

It hasn’t been easy and it probably won’t get any easier but it’ll be worth it. Eating healthy(ish) is second nature to me already.  Gotta kick it up now and start working out.  Today was day 2 of Love The Journey workshop training with Jenn (a different one.  LOL…Reyes).  As soon as the soreness of everything goes away, I’ll write more about that.  

Till next time…ADC out!

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