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Catch me, I’m falling

Butterflies, weak knees, uncontrollable smiling when her name came up on my phone…Danger! Danger! The Captain is in love…

I’m often asked what started my health and fitness journey…Truth be told, I fell for someone who didn’t catch me. Ouch. Whether I was physically too heavy or emotionally too heavy, it just didn’t work out and the fairytale ended before it began. Before I go on, let me make this clear…this is not a post about a break-up. There was no break-up. We were never officially anything more than just friends. Two people in two different places in our lives that just happened to spend a lot of time together. When that ended, I needed to find something to occupy my time and my thoughts. Dieting and working out seemed to be a pretty good distraction from my feelings (which I have a lot of…y’all already know this).  I started hiking at Runyon Canyon. Something peaceful about the view up there. Since I wasn’t going out that much anymore, I didn’t need to be at the usual after-the-club eating spots (Denny’s, King Taco, etc.). 

After a few months, people started to notice a little bit of a weight loss. I ran with that momentum and by the end of 2014, I lost almost 50lbs. 

Some time in the last two years, I fell in love with myself. What started as a way to keep me from getting lost in my emotions turned into a journey towards self discovery. I became all the things I wanted in a person: passionate, driven and focused. My sense of self worth a lot higher than it was back then. All of a sudden, eating healthy and working out mean something more. Every chicken wing I say no to, every nacho I pass up, every swing, every squat, every second in plank is a tribute to what I’ve become. The level of commitment to get this far is the same level of commitment I can apply in relationships with my family, my friends, and one day someone special. Cheers to 2016! New year, better me. Ready for all of life’s (and love’s) possibilities.

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Love the skin you’re in

It’s kind of an issue that my double Ds aka my source of power have been shrinking cuz of my weight loss. 

After having denied it for so long, I decided to go to my usual department store a few weeks ago…you know the one, the one that’s specifically for big girls. Anyway…the ladies are always super friendly to me and that day, it’s like a relationship was ending. I roll up to my usual sales lady and tell her, “My boobs are shrinking, it’s a problem.” After she takes my measurements she tells me, “Sweetie (I think it’s adorable when she says that), we’re running out of sizes for you. Soon, you’ll be too small for this place.” She set me up with a few things to try on and as I’m in the dressing room, I think to myself, “I need to take a pic so I can get a thumbs up or down from the crew.” The crew being my girl cousins and their bffs. Girly isht that I’m not used to so the more opinions, the better. I totally forget about the picture cuz I hear people come into the store and now I’m all about paying and getting outta there.  The lady rings me up and says to me, “Take care, Sweetie.” I walked outta there thinking I’ll be back from time to time to at least buy an accessory or something so I have an excuse to say hi. 

A few days later I found the pic and remembered that somewhere I had another pic from the beginning of the year. I’ve never had the guts to take a pic of myself without a shirt on prior to this year and if I did, that isht was deleted off my phone stat in fear someone might swipe and see it. YIKES! I put the two side by side and was like hmm. I managed to round up some courage and send it to some peeps thinking, “Are people gonna make fun of me for this?” The answer was the same across the bored… “You should be proud of where you are. It’s inspiring.” 

I know what it feels like to have to wear a sweater during the summer. Uncomfortable showing any kind of skin cuz of how big I was. I also know how it feels to have to stand in the back of the picture cuz I’m “taller” than all the other girls. The struggle of having to be surrounded by pretty girls all the time, I know, poor me…Blah, blah…sometimes I see the girl on the left and I turn away. It’s hard to look at and think that was me. Other times, I see that girl and am like, “That bitch is a badass…courage, strength, and drive…if not for her, the girl on the right wouldn’t exist. Good job. Yay me.” I used to struggle with staying motivated and inspired. I’m fortunate to have an amazing fitfam that keeps me going. On the days I’m not around them, I’ve found inspiration within myself. I can’t really find the words to express the feeling, but it’s like a high. I’m confident that I’m always gonna have the support of my friends and family but in the off chance I don’t, the person in the mirror will always be there. Hey girl, hey!! 

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Hip Hop P90 Yoga what?!


These things are amazing!…as coasters.


And they’re pretty good at propping up the uneven chairs.


Which ones do I actually use?! Oh please, none of these have even made it to the DVD player…but that changes now! No sense in having tools if you’re not gonna use them…juuuuust like the gym membership I’ve had for probably ten years but have only been using for two. Smh…do the math, that’s a lotta wasted money. On the days I can’t make it to the gym, the plan is to rotate these DVDs in. Duuuuuuude! Imagine getting the entire household to do them?! My insulin-dependent mother, my partially blind father, my granny who uses a cane and my retired drag queen uncle all doing Hip Hop Abs!! That on video would be gold! Reality TV, here we come…lol. Just kidding. Check back in a few weeks to see which ones actually made it out of the case.

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Eating is not cheating

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Eating is not cheating…that cracks me up every time ‘cuz you know.  LOL.  Anyway.  In just one week, that’s all the food I was surrounded by.  The struggle to “eat clean” (LOL!…I cannot get my head out of the gutter sometimes) is real.  What’s that one saying?…Losing weight is 80% diet and 20% working out.  Well, whatever the numbers are, I can tell you from experience diet is pretty key.  Oh my bad, it’s not a diet, it’s a lifestyle change.  Haha.  I started 2013 at about 275lbs.  I worked out maybe 3 or 4 times a week, mostly cardio with some strength training.  I thought I was being cool by eating Subway sandwiches for lunch every day.  Eat fresh, yay me!…Nope.  2013 was also the year I forgot I was in my 30s and acted 23 instead.  I went out a lot.  Maybe 4-5 times a week.  What comes after a night of partying?  King Taco.  Sup dude who always puts extra cheese on my nachos?!  Or Denny’s.  Sup homie who brings us coffee but sometimes effs up and asks me “Where’s the other girl?”  Can you just pretend you’re asking about a cousin?!  Geez.  My favorite person after partying is the bacon wrapped hot dog lady vendor at Here Lounge in WeHo…Hi, Alma!  You the real MVP!  At the end of 2013, I weighed in at 258.  17lb loss.  Alright, at least I was going in the right direction.

2014 is where it happened.  I saw the infomercial for the Nutribullet and thought, “That looks cool!  I’m gonna buy one.”  I realized that’s the same thing I said the year before ‘cuz i actually did buy one but it was chillin and unused for months.  Oh, and just so we’re clear, I’m not promoting this specific gadget ‘cuz I’m not getting paid to.  I just happen to have it.  Anyway, I made a smoothie for lunch one day.  Spinach based with various fruits.  Pretty good.  I started having smoothies for lunch maybe 3-4 times a week.  Also at the beginning of 2014, I stopped going out so much.  Trading nachos, the super bird with seasoned fries and bacon wrapped hot dogs for spinach and fruit proved to be SUPER beneficial ‘cuz at the end March, I weighed in at 239!  Already more than I lost all of 2013. I definitely wanted to start eating healthier after that.

It’s hard to eat healthy when I’m surrounded by good tasting unhealthy food all the time.  My mom and uncle are beasts in the kitchen.  And although I’m doing pretty good about eating the right kind of food, I still haven’t met a chicken wing or plate of nachos that I didn’t fall in love with.

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Just another “New Year, New Me” post…or maybe not.


For anyone who knows me or anyone who has been following my story over the last year, you know this isn’t a new journey, it’s a continuation.  In 2012, I weighed in at my highest: 286lbs (pictured on the left) .  It might as well have been 300lbs because that’s where I was headed.  I loved this purple shirt and I wore it all the time.  It was easy to hide behind.  I’m currently at 211.4lbs but I no longer feel the need to hide.  My 2014 goal was to hit 200.  I didn’t quite make it, but that just means I need to go harder this year.  My new goal is to hit 185lbs by my birthday in June.  I decided to blog about my journey to keep myself in check.  I figured if the plan’s out in the open and people were watching, I’d be more likely to follow through.  Over the next 6 months, I’ll be posting updates, before and after pictures, food, workouts, and pretty much anything that contributes to my journey.  If people are inspired by my story, cool.  If haters end up hating more, even better!  Cheers to the new year!  May the odds be ever in my favor.

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